Embracing this feeling & Dealing with it!
I will take this as a lesson learned AGAIN .. lol I don’t know how many times I’ll go through this, but I know for sure this time I have total control over what’s going on, and its time to move on with my life.
Breaking up / finally moving on from someone you fell in love with is hard. I’m not gonna sit here and tell my girlfriends “I’m so over him” Blah blah blah, because deep down inside I know how I truly feel and deal with heartbreak, and just sitting there saying this and that is just a “front” for me. There is no such thing as getting over a break-up / heartbreak the “RIGHT” way, the real way to deal with heartbreak is to just “DEAL” with it. Simple as that.
In the past I used to lean on alcohol for my problems because it made me feel better afterwards, because lord knows what I did before. Right now, I refuse to turn to alcohol in this case, I’ve learned to just lean on the Lord to help me get through this rough time in my life. Yeah, I’m sure your sitting there thinking, oh this is so typical of a person to turn to god when something goes wrong. But, that’s where you’re wrong. I made sure god was part of my relationship at all time, I thanked him every morning for blessing me with everything he has blessed me with (i.e Family, my job, and my relationship with *him*) But, yeah it didn’t go as I planned. I truly believe that god is clearing out the path for me and has someone who is better in so many ways and who knows what I am worth. Til then, I’ll be waiting for whoever that someone is!
I sit here finding myself dwelling on what went wrong in the relationship & friendship, and why it went wrong. I was reminded today that these feelings are a natural part of the healing process and I should allow myself to feel whatever it is I feel, whenever I feel it. So yeah, I refuse to sit around trying to figure out what went wrong between us, because for all I know it just didn’t work out.
This is a lesson learned on my part, and I’m not gonna lie, it hurts like hell. But, learning this lesson is the important part of my healing process. This relationship, no matter how wrong it seemed to be, cannot be considered a failure if I’ve grown from this and learned from it. While learning this lesson, its preparing me for my future.
With god, family, & friends by my side, I know for sure I will get through this!
That’s all folks!
<3Ritha87
