October252011

Sleepless night for Ritha ..

Today was such a drag… Long day at work, especially coming from having a great weekend with my loves. Got home and took a nap. Woke up from my nap and just sat there and started thinking. I sat on the bed for about an hr just debating on if I should go to the gym or not. I chose to just go to the gym.

My goal this month was to lose at least 10lbs, I’m not gonna weigh myself til next Monday so I have a wk to work hard. I’m tired of being big, I believe this is the heaviest I’ve ever been and its just depressing. I realized that my health is the most important thing that I need to start caring about other then family and work. I feel that I have the workout part down, its just dieting is a big thing that I need to work on. I used to tell myself I can treat myself over the weekend to a few sweets here and there, but if you really look at it… I’ve been treating myself for the past 24 years..LOL. I’m determined to lose weight. If a friend of mine can better himself and lose 40 something pounds within a few weeks, I can do the same.

So yeah, I made it to the gym and here I am 5hrs later forcing myself to sleep. Well music will be my therapy tonight before I sleep…

-Ritha87

October162011
Cowels Mountain in San Diego, California. 1.5 Miles 15,961’ above sea level. There is nothing like waking up early Sunday morning and hiking up with the family for the first time. My trainer suggested that I hike up this mountain as a challenge, because he feels that when it comes to challenges I really push myself in completing the challenges. I Google this mountain before trying it and I told myself I can probably go half a mile up and that’s it nothing else. The morning of .. I pushed myself to keep going … I walked by the 1/2 mile sign and said to myself “SERIOUSLY THAT’S IT ?” By that time I thought to myself what the hell am I doing ? Why am I putting myself through this pain of just climbing up this damn mountain? I don’t know what it was but something just kept on telling me to continue and so I did. 1mile later, I’m at the top of the mountain feeling accomplished and just so proud of myself for pushing though .. numbness feet towards the end and all but it was all worth it. Stayed up there for a while, just thinking about life and what I’m going to do and what needs to be done. My goals have been set, and I’m motivated to reach these goals just as I was motivated to make it to the top of this mountain. Also praying while I was up there just made everything so much better. God will continue to guide me down the right path and I know he will continue to bless me just as he’s always has. Ok that’s my hiking blog..lol -Ritha87

Cowels Mountain in San Diego, California.

1.5 Miles 15,961’ above sea level. There is nothing like waking up early Sunday morning and hiking up with the family for the first time.

My trainer suggested that I hike up this mountain as a challenge, because he feels that when it comes to challenges I really push myself in completing the challenges. I Google this mountain before trying it and I told myself I can probably go half a mile up and that’s it nothing else. The morning of .. I pushed myself to keep going … I walked by the 1/2 mile sign and said to myself “SERIOUSLY THAT’S IT ?” By that time I thought to myself what the hell am I doing ? Why am I putting myself through this pain of just climbing up this damn mountain? I don’t know what it was but something just kept on telling me to continue and so I did.

1mile later, I’m at the top of the mountain feeling accomplished and just so proud of myself for pushing though .. numbness feet towards the end and all but it was all worth it. Stayed up there for a while, just thinking about life and what I’m going to do and what needs to be done.

My goals have been set, and I’m motivated to reach these goals just as I was motivated to make it to the top of this mountain. Also praying while I was up there just made everything so much better. God will continue to guide me down the right path and I know he will continue to bless me just as he’s always has.

Ok that’s my hiking blog..lol -Ritha87
August32011

Embracing this feeling & Dealing with it!

I will take this as a lesson learned AGAIN .. lol I don’t know how many times I’ll go through this, but I know for sure this time I have total control over what’s going on, and its time to move on with my life.  

Breaking up / finally moving on from someone you fell in love with is hard.  I’m not gonna sit here and tell my girlfriends “I’m so over him” Blah blah blah, because deep down inside I know how I truly feel and deal with heartbreak, and just sitting there saying this and that is just a “front” for me.  There is no such thing as getting over a break-up / heartbreak the “RIGHT” way, the real way to deal with heartbreak is to just “DEAL” with it.  Simple as that.

In the past I used to lean on alcohol for my problems because it made me feel better afterwards, because lord knows what I did before.  Right now, I refuse to turn to alcohol in this case, I’ve learned to just lean on the Lord to help  me get through this rough time in my life.  Yeah, I’m sure your sitting there thinking, oh this is so typical of a person to turn to god when something goes wrong.  But, that’s where you’re wrong.  I made sure god was part of my relationship at all time, I thanked him every morning for blessing me with everything he has blessed me with (i.e Family, my job, and my relationship with *him*) But, yeah it didn’t go as I planned.  I truly believe that god is clearing out the path for me and has someone who is better in so many ways and who knows what I am worth.  Til then, I’ll be waiting for whoever that someone is!

I sit here finding myself dwelling on what went wrong in the relationship & friendship, and why it went wrong.  I was reminded today that these feelings are a natural part of the healing process and I should allow myself to feel whatever it is I feel, whenever I feel it.  So yeah, I refuse to sit around trying to figure out what went wrong between us, because for all I know it just didn’t work out.

This is a lesson learned on my part, and I’m not gonna lie, it hurts like hell.  But, learning this lesson is the important part of my healing process.  This relationship, no matter how wrong it seemed to be, cannot be considered a failure if I’ve grown from this and learned from it.  While learning this lesson, its preparing me for my future. 

With god, family, & friends by my side, I know for sure I will get through this! 

That’s all folks! 

<3Ritha87

Relationship Heartbreak moving on love lessons lesson learned 

July122011

Wow, It’s been a while … . .

I’ve been neglecting my tumblr :’( … OH WELL, time to TUMBLR around ya’ll :)

June82011

If a man truly loves a women, he will go out of his way to be with her!

I have yet to find a man like this …

Just speaking my mind right now…

Our love was there, but somehow just drifted away..I feel as if I didn’t secure our foundation before we both fell in love.  Instead, I fell in love first and went with what my heart felt at the time.  I took a risk and went ahead and tried it out and hoped for everything to fall in place, because when your in love you just think to yourself “everything will fall into place” ..  Before this relationship, I had standards and I knew how much I was worth and what I wanted in a man .. and I’m not gonna lie, I lost my senses because I was so in love with this man.  But REALITY hit, and yeah I got my “MOJO” back lol .. nah for reals, As much as love and understanding his situation was part of the reason I stayed, it’s not right or fair for a women to sit there and wait for a man.  I sat there thinking it was the right thing to do.. to sit around and wait for him, and hoping that it will get better.  TRUST…. I came to my senses, and it hit me hard…. I’m finally letting go … as much as it hurts, I had to do what I had to do, for ME….

I know what I’m worth, and I feel I deserve a man … who will go out of his way to be with me, who doesn’t hesitate to do simple things.. I want a man that will meet me half way mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I believe every women deserves a man like this.  If this is too much for a man to do, then seriously do me a favor and GO SUCK IT EZ! lol….jaykayyy!

Ok that’s enough blogging for tonight :)

Remember Ritha LOVES you :)  

Women, Worth Love Relationship 

April272011

If you throw away a good relationship because of problems that can be worked out, is like throwing away a car because of a flat tire. Try COMPROMISING!! #Jussayin

7PM

I hear guys complain about not being able to find a decent girl. When a lot of the time the real problem is they aren’t decent guys. #Jussayin

7PM
“Everyday you wake up is a blessing…treat it like that. Be thankful for all you have and enjoy the fact that you’re here to have your problems.”
7PM
“Don’t let the scars of your past be painful reminders that rule your future.”
April182011

Lets be real …

Third times a charm I guess .. well in my case, no not really.. once again we’re both left heartbroken for the third time .. THIRD FUCKEN TIME! … *excuse my french*

I’m a be real about this and let it all out… I’m so done with this, off and on relationships is just not a healthy relationship at all, I was in denial when someone told me “Ritha the on & off thing is no bueno” I really loved this man, but yeah I guess it just wasn’t enough.  

I’m not trying to play the victim because we both have flaws and I was in the wrong as well, but I tried my best to compromise with him, I don’t know what else to do now, He told me he just wants to be friends now…but to be honest, I loved too hard to just be friends .. and when you love someone than they say they just wanna be friends lets BE REAL..your ass doesn’t wanna just “be friends” .. it never works out, because thats when the “on-and-off” come abouts… So I did what was right for myself .. Cut all ties, Deleted him from everything, and I told him to forget me! … this is whats best, after three times on and off, somethings wrong there and if I don’t see it now..someone just slap me already! … but yeah as much as I love him, its just not going to work out.

Its for the best .. Trust me I’ve been here one too many times, so I’ll just deal with it, Mama raised a souljah :) HAHA!  This will go in my books as a “lesson learned” 

RithaLovesYou

Relationships Breakups 

April172011

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, They just make the most of everything they have. So Live it up, Laugh loudly, & Love deeply

Good night folks :) 

1AM

Adapt, improvise, and overcome…

12AM
“A friendship that is transformed into a relationship beats a crush any day :)”
April142011

A man who treats his woman like a princess is proof that he has been born & raised in the arms of a queen.

AGREE :)

(Source: dessalicious12)

April132011
“Always make your absence felt in such a way that somebody misses you, but don’t let your absence be so long, that somebody will start learning how to live without you.”
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